to put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness
~ Ephesians 4:22-24, ESV ~
Christianity offers an abundant life, peace of mind, and eternal life for those who follow the precepts and walk in obedience to God’s will and desire. Yet, it does not promise an easy journey. And, for someone who embraces Christianity as part of their recovery from substance use, mental health related issues, and any compulsory behavior they want to change; the rewards are self-discovery through Jesus Christ. Our Christian faith requires us to search our conscience for any resentments and face them. No one person is capable of progressing through spiritual maturity and recovery while holding onto past resentments, old angers, and hatreds.
By holding onto them, we are allowing a part of our old self protection from the light of Christ that renews our minds, heart, and soul. By allowing ourselves the ability to be renewed, we no longer reserve the small corners of our minds for the game of power and resentment. They will eventually consume us and justify in our minds a return to our old patterns, attitudes, and behaviors – sin lieth at the door. And unto thee shall be his desire (See, Genesis 4:7, KJV).
Our Heavenly Father does not want us holding anything back that may hinder our deep love and need for His guidance, wisdom, counsel, and direction. We must come to a place to be willing to surrender all – even if we do not know how. No one person can stop being resentful by mere volition. It is only when we are honest and humble to become learners. Willing to be led in a constructive and corrective direction. To allow time to be guided rather than seek instant cure. It is then we may learn trust and may progress and grow.